Sunday, May 15, 2016

Realizations

Today is the day. The last day that I will be here; tomorrow at 2 PM, I will be leaving for Singapore. 
The moment that I have been waiting for, ever since I found out, I've been anticipating this day to arrive. 
I'm giddy, I'm excited, but most of all I'm nervous.

I've never been the most outgoing person, nor the most social person, but I am willing to put myself out there. I like my small group of friends, and hopefully these 24 other amazing students are willing to accept into their friend group just as much as I am willing to.

It all happened so quickly. (Nonetheless, I still haven't even finished packing)What happened? Nearly 2 months have passed, and my acceptance still feels like yesterday, although my giddiness has died down recently, but I feel it surfacing once again.

What is this? Awareness please don't fail me now. Be conscientious, be considerate, but most importantly please be kind.

Programs like this changes people, and I want to change for the better. I'm not just out to play; I'm out here to learn, to grow, and to thrive. I'm more than just a oxygen-addicted eukaryote. I'm a human. I pursue happiness, I seek fulfillment, and I flourish on passion.So please, let's not change for the worst. Center myself to the Tao, and everything else will follow. Let me be me, but guide me. Let me be more thoughtful and caring; most importantly, let me be more respectful. My parents brought me up this way, and I dare not to let them down. I want to be something that they are proud of, and I thank everything that they have ever done for me. Hopefully, I have matured beautifully, but deep down inside, I'll always be your little girl. Being apart from my parents for 2 months will be hard, but it will be a learning experience.

Keep smiling and laughing, because that is truly the life worth living. I am blessed.



--- Su :')

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Self-Reflection

Hello!

Yes, my first year at UNC has finally come to an end. The memories were great, the people I met were wonderful, and I literally could not have asked for anything better. I truly am blessed to be going to such a wonderful school. Even though today was raining and quite gloomy, I truly enjoyed my last day at Chapel Hill.

I woke up, anticipating for this day to come ever since the first day I moved in. I was awkward and didn't know where I would fit in at this university. New places, new people, but would there be a new me? Have I changed fundamentally? Hopefully not, hopefully my essence has stayed the same throughout or even become better. I want to improve and want to become a better person. Sometimes when people knock you down, I need to find the courage to stand up again. Therefore I have learned a multitude of things this year:
1. People change and that's okay.
I feel that I've been away from my friends too long, some I do not think I've talked to in months, but thats okay. It's only normal. Sometimes I hate change, but its important to note that it is inevitable.

2. It's okay to not like someone.

I've realized that my judgements can be completely off. I've hung out with J for quite an extensive amount of time during the 1st semester, but soon as the 2nd one came along, I've realized that J isn't what I imagined him to be. I do not need to accommodate to him, I am my own priority. Sometimes people suck the living life out of you, so I've decided to cut him off. And that is perfectly acceptable

3. Parents are important.

I've always taken my parents' kindness for granted, but once I left for college, I've realized that I really do miss talking to my parents, eating their home-cooked meals, and most importantly, being around them. Their presence was naturally comforting, and I didn't realize this until I truly lost it. I've learned how to open up to them and actually strike a conversation with them. Even though they are the type to show their love through actions rather than affection, I've learned to pick up their cues of love. I give them all my respect and respect, and hopefully, my kids will do the same for me. I do love them, but I show it through actions, just like my parents. I've matured and learned that they have sacrificed everything for the sake of my happiness, and I could not be more honored. I am grateful for all that they have done and hopefully I will become a daughter that they'll be proud of.

4. Open up

Lastly is opening up. I've learned to smile and greet people rather than blatantly ignoring them. I've always have had a happy demeanor, but if I honestly did not know you well, I would not know how to open up, how to properly act. Now I've decided to say hi first instead of waiting for the other person to say it, I've started to greet people more, and I've started to add people on Facebook first instead of waiting for the other person to add me. I've hopefully come out of my shell and become more aware that my taciturnity sometimes comes off as being rude and unfriendly, and I truly am trying to change.

This year was wonderful, the people I met, I just want to thank you all. This year has been great, tough, but I would not change anything about it.


Summer, here I come. Thank you for a great year Chapel Hill. I hope to see you this Fall! Cheers!


--Su


PS. Congrats to those who are also done with college! You've made it through! Also to those who are still in school, you got this! The end is near, and you can push on through. :)